Monday 29 December 2008

Twee Duizand And Bloody Eight.

Well, I end this year with a terribly broken heart.

I am Going to begin this blog with a little summary of my blessed year.
January, Well Jan was boring. It was just over so i was sort of trying to heal. Trust me Aromatherapy doesn't work. If u have a bad break up, Icecream and fattening food is the only stuff that will help u up and help u gain a few extra pounds sigh.
February, Same as January.
March, I left to national service.For more info check out my other blog. But somehow National Service helped me in a lot of healing ways. My heart was getting better.

Lets Skip to June.

I CAME HOME!

Started working in a small company called Getronics, Life was good. I was earning enough to party every weekend,so it kept me busy.

I resigned in October.Due to personal reasons.

November; It all started over again. She came back crawling slowly into my life. it was good at first all jolly and happy and emotionally she was there again.
December. Oh December.

Well i was going to turn 18 and i just couldn't wait , i was having quite a bit of fun going here and there, visiting friends who had come down from their respectful countries, unno just partying mainly. She started turning for the worst. As usual turning into the big bad wolf again. I started to feel the hurt.
I turned 18 and minutes before i did i was crying my lungs out on my bed. came out washed my face and put on a fake smile to greet the people who we're in my house at 12am. Yes She came.
the questions, Jon tell me why Ur not smiling when this was what u wanted all along?
Because when Ur heart is not at ease u cant be either was what i answered.
Had a birthday party by the pool and clubbed after.

Went to pangkor the next day, it made it worse.

Had the worse Christmas ever.
Not an ounce of happiness in me. all i did was get drunk to drown the pain.
Ironically i feel stupid. technically its not my fault because in this case my heart is making all the decisions.

cant wait for the new year, My resolution is to forget and move on. I hope i can. at the end of the day i quote. You make it Real for ME.

Happy 2009 Everyone. I hope u all find what your looking for.

Love Jon x