Well, I end this year with a terribly broken heart.
I am Going to begin this blog with a little summary of my blessed year.
January, Well Jan was boring. It was just over so i was sort of trying to heal. Trust me Aromatherapy doesn't work. If u have a bad break up, Icecream and fattening food is the only stuff that will help u up and help u gain a few extra pounds sigh.
February, Same as January.
March, I left to national service.For more info check out my other blog. But somehow National Service helped me in a lot of healing ways. My heart was getting better.
Lets Skip to June.
I CAME HOME!
Started working in a small company called Getronics, Life was good. I was earning enough to party every weekend,so it kept me busy.
I resigned in October.Due to personal reasons.
November; It all started over again. She came back crawling slowly into my life. it was good at first all jolly and happy and emotionally she was there again.
December. Oh December.
Well i was going to turn 18 and i just couldn't wait , i was having quite a bit of fun going here and there, visiting friends who had come down from their respectful countries, unno just partying mainly. She started turning for the worst. As usual turning into the big bad wolf again. I started to feel the hurt.
I turned 18 and minutes before i did i was crying my lungs out on my bed. came out washed my face and put on a fake smile to greet the people who we're in my house at 12am. Yes She came.
the questions, Jon tell me why Ur not smiling when this was what u wanted all along?
Because when Ur heart is not at ease u cant be either was what i answered.
Had a birthday party by the pool and clubbed after.
Went to pangkor the next day, it made it worse.
Had the worse Christmas ever.
Not an ounce of happiness in me. all i did was get drunk to drown the pain.
Ironically i feel stupid. technically its not my fault because in this case my heart is making all the decisions.
cant wait for the new year, My resolution is to forget and move on. I hope i can. at the end of the day i quote. You make it Real for ME.
Happy 2009 Everyone. I hope u all find what your looking for.
Love Jon x
Monday, 29 December 2008
Thursday, 9 October 2008
From Rags to riches
Its been very much a splendid day i mean the day couldn't have gone better, the world is so nice! hahaha not ! why is it that we can never be better than the rest when it comes to being great?
Some are born great, some have greatness trusted unto them! that's actually bollocks , have u ever asked the guy who sits next to you in your class , bout what he thinks he would become in the future, well i have, and the answer i normally get is, i want to become the president or a diplomat or achieve something that makes me extremely rich. to the point where i never have to worry bout NOT having money, but fundamentally, is money that important?
Well i think that you would live a dreadful life if u had too much money in your hands. Firstly you would be very paranoid, and secondly people who have loads of money are just very miserable!
Some are born great, some have greatness trusted unto them! that's actually bollocks , have u ever asked the guy who sits next to you in your class , bout what he thinks he would become in the future, well i have, and the answer i normally get is, i want to become the president or a diplomat or achieve something that makes me extremely rich. to the point where i never have to worry bout NOT having money, but fundamentally, is money that important?
Well i think that you would live a dreadful life if u had too much money in your hands. Firstly you would be very paranoid, and secondly people who have loads of money are just very miserable!
Wednesday, 8 October 2008
abolish.
Don't we all as Malaysians somehow feel as though our rights as humans have been taken away?
There are so many things in this country that are controlled in so many ways!
We are like robots to the goverment.
Basically if we could be kept in cages, they would do it.
Gosh, there are so many things you can't do in this country, compared to other countries our country stresses on so many unnessasary rules.
It clearly states in the constitution that we are allowed to voice out our opinions in the form of a protest or rally as long as we keep the peace between other cultures and religions.
IT clearly states that freedom of speech should be given to all.
But these days this practice has been locked away by the goverment.
Gosh, you say something about the ruling of the country and you get thrown away in ISA for it.
If you ask me, there are many ways to handle a situation, without using the barbaric force of the ISA.
Its like these days, you say something;be it the truth or not" and you get thrown away for two years. Do you think that people who rule this bautiful country kinda miss-use this power?
Concerts. I know we are a country that has a major population of muslims but does that mean that we are not allowed to watch concerts that other people around the world get to watch?
A country like indonesia who has a larger head count of muslims and yet they bring down concerts of every freaking GENRE!
as we say over here mana achi!
Anyway i think the country could do better in many aspects, we're have such rich culture and beautiful places, yet we're all just feeling so afraid and trapt by our own goverment.
There are so many things in this country that are controlled in so many ways!
We are like robots to the goverment.
Basically if we could be kept in cages, they would do it.
Gosh, there are so many things you can't do in this country, compared to other countries our country stresses on so many unnessasary rules.
It clearly states in the constitution that we are allowed to voice out our opinions in the form of a protest or rally as long as we keep the peace between other cultures and religions.
IT clearly states that freedom of speech should be given to all.
But these days this practice has been locked away by the goverment.
Gosh, you say something about the ruling of the country and you get thrown away in ISA for it.
If you ask me, there are many ways to handle a situation, without using the barbaric force of the ISA.
Its like these days, you say something;be it the truth or not" and you get thrown away for two years. Do you think that people who rule this bautiful country kinda miss-use this power?
Concerts. I know we are a country that has a major population of muslims but does that mean that we are not allowed to watch concerts that other people around the world get to watch?
A country like indonesia who has a larger head count of muslims and yet they bring down concerts of every freaking GENRE!
as we say over here mana achi!
Anyway i think the country could do better in many aspects, we're have such rich culture and beautiful places, yet we're all just feeling so afraid and trapt by our own goverment.
ABOLISH the right to take away OUR RIGHTS!
Peace be on us and our Country
Sex, Is it the enlightment to a swell relationship?
Most people wait a few weeks before they get into each others pants, But what if u do it on the first date?
what if u discover u have a bad play mate on the first date!?
I mean would tick you off? or would you try and live with it?
Ok, the fact is my friend has a lot of sex, i mean so do i, but she always tends to beat me.
Anyway we love sharing sex tips with each other. and sometimes we just agree on the same thing here or something there.
Now, I think that bad is sex is BAD. I mean i wouldn't to be having bad sex all the time. Bad sex sometimes is ok but imagine living with bad sex for 2 or 3 years?
Men discover sex at a very tender age normally and women tend to venture into the world of sex much later in life, so normally it would be the male figure who initiates the first move. Some girls have problems adapting to this new activity! and when they've fully ventured they tend to find fault in the guys, like "Your not fast enuf" or "you should try Viagra" or "we should try different positions"/ End of the day the girl takes the lead and the man is Ashamed of himself and becomes inferior. He will always have this thought in his head that he's never that good. And then what happens?
Well from the women's perspective its not always like that, I find that most women love to be driven to the place they want to be, some like it rough, some like it slow, some like it fast, some like it Big!?
So neither parties are ever happy if they don't have what the want?
Are men all living in fantasies ?
Are women living in dreamy orgasms?
I think its sorta ridiculous to judge a relationship based on the SEX!
But the world is sorta turning into a red light district anyway so, i guess we're all just a bunch of idiosyncratic whores.
peace be with you!
what if u discover u have a bad play mate on the first date!?
I mean would tick you off? or would you try and live with it?
Ok, the fact is my friend has a lot of sex, i mean so do i, but she always tends to beat me.
Anyway we love sharing sex tips with each other. and sometimes we just agree on the same thing here or something there.
Now, I think that bad is sex is BAD. I mean i wouldn't to be having bad sex all the time. Bad sex sometimes is ok but imagine living with bad sex for 2 or 3 years?
Men discover sex at a very tender age normally and women tend to venture into the world of sex much later in life, so normally it would be the male figure who initiates the first move. Some girls have problems adapting to this new activity! and when they've fully ventured they tend to find fault in the guys, like "Your not fast enuf" or "you should try Viagra" or "we should try different positions"/ End of the day the girl takes the lead and the man is Ashamed of himself and becomes inferior. He will always have this thought in his head that he's never that good. And then what happens?
Well from the women's perspective its not always like that, I find that most women love to be driven to the place they want to be, some like it rough, some like it slow, some like it fast, some like it Big!?
So neither parties are ever happy if they don't have what the want?
Are men all living in fantasies ?
Are women living in dreamy orgasms?
I think its sorta ridiculous to judge a relationship based on the SEX!
But the world is sorta turning into a red light district anyway so, i guess we're all just a bunch of idiosyncratic whores.
peace be with you!
The Art of Losing
Bonjour,
It happens to everyone!
It happens everyday!
It makes you feel like something was thrown at you with ultra lightning speed!
Now! what I'm talking about is LOSING.
It doesn't really matter what it is you lose, but just the mere fact that you know you've lost something makes you feel horrible!
OK the main point of this post is to explain my experiences to everyone on the things I've lost over the years of my existence.
The thing is I'm not going to blog about material things, I'm going to write about the "thing" that we all hate losing!
This precious thing that we all lose at some point of our lives is FRIENDS.
Gah the thought of losing friends to me has become the last thing on my mind!
I bet you want to know why right?
I'll start from a long long long time ago.
The fact is, I mix with a very mixed group and most of them consist of foreigners. I guess its because i click better with foreigners rather than locals. This could be because of my knowledge of the English language, I used to have problems communicating because my Malay was never that good, Well of recently my vocab in the Malay language has become very good and now i can have a good conversation without errors, Well most of the time at least!
Hey, I'm getting out of context! Anyway, yeah so most of my friends were from international schools or used to come down from overseas to visit me. And the thing is is they all left!
I mean they would be here for a month or so and then just leave and there i would be sobbing and getting all depressed, and you know what? I used to be so Emotional for like 2 weeks! and then finally i would move on! But the fact is i was getting tired of myself getting all emotional!
I would tell my self that i was a very sociable person and i had one too many friends , so for me to be crying over one friend was just ridiculous!
OK this may sound weird but, I think it applies to many of us, OK you when u and Ur friend love this particular song or band and then the friend leaves away and you know Ur not going to see the person for a long period of time, well for me i can never play THAT song or listen toTHAT band, because all it does is reminds me of the times we had! Its really weird but hey that's me!
So i will never listen to that particular song. haha
Anyway i think all of us go through a bad break up, or deaths, or losing precious things in our life. But we all need to learn how to get over it. I'm one to talk because I've gone thru so much in my life and yet I've tried to rise above everything, So i think, if i can do it;You can do it.
Common fact, Become less attached to the one you love for you might lose them at any time. But in that same time, Give them all the love you can give.
Speadthelove. jon . Aurevoir.xx
It happens to everyone!
It happens everyday!
It makes you feel like something was thrown at you with ultra lightning speed!
Now! what I'm talking about is LOSING.
It doesn't really matter what it is you lose, but just the mere fact that you know you've lost something makes you feel horrible!
OK the main point of this post is to explain my experiences to everyone on the things I've lost over the years of my existence.
The thing is I'm not going to blog about material things, I'm going to write about the "thing" that we all hate losing!
This precious thing that we all lose at some point of our lives is FRIENDS.
Gah the thought of losing friends to me has become the last thing on my mind!
I bet you want to know why right?
I'll start from a long long long time ago.
The fact is, I mix with a very mixed group and most of them consist of foreigners. I guess its because i click better with foreigners rather than locals. This could be because of my knowledge of the English language, I used to have problems communicating because my Malay was never that good, Well of recently my vocab in the Malay language has become very good and now i can have a good conversation without errors, Well most of the time at least!
Hey, I'm getting out of context! Anyway, yeah so most of my friends were from international schools or used to come down from overseas to visit me. And the thing is is they all left!
I mean they would be here for a month or so and then just leave and there i would be sobbing and getting all depressed, and you know what? I used to be so Emotional for like 2 weeks! and then finally i would move on! But the fact is i was getting tired of myself getting all emotional!
I would tell my self that i was a very sociable person and i had one too many friends , so for me to be crying over one friend was just ridiculous!
OK this may sound weird but, I think it applies to many of us, OK you when u and Ur friend love this particular song or band and then the friend leaves away and you know Ur not going to see the person for a long period of time, well for me i can never play THAT song or listen toTHAT band, because all it does is reminds me of the times we had! Its really weird but hey that's me!
So i will never listen to that particular song. haha
Anyway i think all of us go through a bad break up, or deaths, or losing precious things in our life. But we all need to learn how to get over it. I'm one to talk because I've gone thru so much in my life and yet I've tried to rise above everything, So i think, if i can do it;You can do it.
Common fact, Become less attached to the one you love for you might lose them at any time. But in that same time, Give them all the love you can give.
Speadthelove. jon . Aurevoir.xx
Tuesday, 7 October 2008
La mode Chiq!
Fashion, Its a must in everyones life, Whether your Male or Female, Gay or Straight! It doesn't matter!
Fashion plays a major part in everyone's life.
Everyone wants to be Hip! or Chique!
Versace, Louis Vuitton, Marc Jacobs, Fendi, Burberry, Dolce & Gabbana, Juicy Couture, Christian Dior, Miu Miu, Cavalli,Prada and all these designer brands!
Are out there, they're so out there and they burn holes in millions of pockets world wide!
I mean i love designer brands! Expensive clothes tend to make you feel good in a way! Its some how like buying an expensive car, I mean you know the car has like 10 airbags and its really safe so you feel really safe being in it! Its just the case when it comes to expensive clothes!
Its a must that everyone have at least some thing that cost more than RM 300 in their closet.
The thing is, is the planet becoming too accustomed to splurging on these designer goods?
Are the normal folk idolising hot celebs just a little too much?
fun fact= Whatever clothes that celebs wear on the red carpet; Its all given to them or rented to them! Nothings really bought with a cent off their earnings!
Get this, If ur a mediocre person, living in a mediocre life and yet ur spending every cent of ur hard earned mediocre salary on designer goods, doesn't it make u look really really stupid?
Take sex and the city for instance, SJP or Carrie in the series, depicts one of the worst examples for women of today. In the series, she's just a columnist for a newspaper and yet she's buying 5oo$ shoes from Manolo Blahnik and Jimmy choo!
How does she afford all this?
Trust me that's a question even i cant answer! lol
But my point is! We all need to learn that there is some much more out there in terms of fashion!
Budget stores sell some of the most hippest outfits I've ever seen! and if u go to flee markets, there is a whole lot of stuff to choose from like, CLOTHES AND SHOES! and everything u need!
I mean once in a while its really alright to shop at designer boutiques but when u become a compulsive shopper, u tend to get yourself into a whole lot of dept and shite!
Who needs all these unnecessary problems when we have enough to cope with on as it is!
So i'm not judging anyone here at all! Coz i must say i love designer goods too! but i've learnt self control over the years and its helped me cope with my addiction! hahah
Live Life to The fullest!
Fashion plays a major part in everyone's life.
Everyone wants to be Hip! or Chique!
Versace, Louis Vuitton, Marc Jacobs, Fendi, Burberry, Dolce & Gabbana, Juicy Couture, Christian Dior, Miu Miu, Cavalli,Prada and all these designer brands!
Are out there, they're so out there and they burn holes in millions of pockets world wide!
I mean i love designer brands! Expensive clothes tend to make you feel good in a way! Its some how like buying an expensive car, I mean you know the car has like 10 airbags and its really safe so you feel really safe being in it! Its just the case when it comes to expensive clothes!
Its a must that everyone have at least some thing that cost more than RM 300 in their closet.
The thing is, is the planet becoming too accustomed to splurging on these designer goods?
Are the normal folk idolising hot celebs just a little too much?
fun fact= Whatever clothes that celebs wear on the red carpet; Its all given to them or rented to them! Nothings really bought with a cent off their earnings!
Get this, If ur a mediocre person, living in a mediocre life and yet ur spending every cent of ur hard earned mediocre salary on designer goods, doesn't it make u look really really stupid?
Take sex and the city for instance, SJP or Carrie in the series, depicts one of the worst examples for women of today. In the series, she's just a columnist for a newspaper and yet she's buying 5oo$ shoes from Manolo Blahnik and Jimmy choo!
How does she afford all this?
Trust me that's a question even i cant answer! lol
But my point is! We all need to learn that there is some much more out there in terms of fashion!
Budget stores sell some of the most hippest outfits I've ever seen! and if u go to flee markets, there is a whole lot of stuff to choose from like, CLOTHES AND SHOES! and everything u need!
I mean once in a while its really alright to shop at designer boutiques but when u become a compulsive shopper, u tend to get yourself into a whole lot of dept and shite!
Who needs all these unnecessary problems when we have enough to cope with on as it is!
So i'm not judging anyone here at all! Coz i must say i love designer goods too! but i've learnt self control over the years and its helped me cope with my addiction! hahah
Live Life to The fullest!
Poverty.
Whats Your view on poverty?
Hunger? Thirst? Deaths?
What defines poverty?
I seriously haven't got many points when it comes to poverty! For me poverty means really poor people who live in third world countries and beg for whatever bit of food they can get!
Many tv networks , air the current situaition thats going on in most third world countries.
Well actually to view, poverty doesn't only exist in third world countries, it exist EVERYWHERE!
I mean literally everywhere around the world there is an ounce of poverty. Its proven, So dont argue.
Ok lets take africa for instance, There are parts of africa that live in the riches! They have practically everything they need. and then there are parts of africa where they eat sand!
Now the fundamental question is.. How do we eradicate poverty?
Its not impossible. You see the world has literally enough resources to make sure everyone lives a healthy life, I mean it doesnt mean we have have to live a wealthy life. But what happens when we throw away wealth and just keep health?
We idolise people like Paris Hilton and Lindsay lohan, because they live a life of luxury!
If celebraties can afford to splurge on Material objects such as designer clothes and wards of cars, then why are there still people all over the world living in slum?
Lets not go as far as Africa! What about the Harlem in New York? That place is called the bronx for a reason; the people who live in the bronx live in extreme poverty too!
But how can this be ? Its NEW YORK, THE BIG APPLE! TIMES SQUARE! , You see it doesnt make sense does it!
The world doesnt make sense!
There are people starving all over the world and yet there are people who eat in sunset boulevard everyday.
Presidents all over the world make public appreances to raise money for the poor, not because they want too! Its because they have to! Thats the only way they get to earn more power! They sink into the hearts of many just by pretending!
And gosh, how we fall for all the hogwash these people do!
A concert is held in the name of Poverty/Aids and yet all you see is welldressed celebs singing out there!
Why not bring down kids from ehthiopia to perform! How do we know what they can do until they show it, or at least given the chance to show it!
Everybody has some talent, and you dont have to be rich to show it, right?
God, China and India are two countries that are over populated, They hord billions of citizens, Billions of people who are able to do something or other yet the countries look like dumpsites. There are only a few places in these countries that are beautiful and when i say beautiful i mean Breath-taking! So why not make the entire country breath taking? You have the man power to make a change!
Everyday Tens of thousands of CHILDREN die from various reason, Mainly AIDS, FLU's , STARVATION and the like , But most of these reasons can be avoided!
Instead of acting and singing and blowing millions of dollars buying clothes why dont celebs go to these countrys and help them out? Or is the social stigma too high?
You know what, I feel sick just thinking about this! Its an abomanation!
Anyway guys all im trying to say is lets all try and MAKE POVERTY HISTORY!!
"to be poor is to be deprived of those goods and services and pleasures which others around us take for granted."
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