OH MY GOD. I think im becoming a Slut! hahaha
Just kidding.
I dont know what to say really, im here in Zahra's office, waiting for her to finish her work, its 4am BTW. And yesh im really tired, but the extent we go through for our close friends right?
Like i would take a bullet for any of my besties! Well, i guess thats just how life is, friends mean a lot.
I feel like my best friend in the whole wide world, is drifting futher and further away from me.
Its like my heart is being plunged out, well i dont mean to sound dramatic, but you when u start to lose the person, the one person, who truly understands you, is there for you and tries to follow you.
I dont know , maybe i should move on?
I mean well like, i cant say much, he's been through alot as of recent. So maybe he's changed because of this disastrous few weeks or maybe its the people around him, who dont like me and then start to bad mouth me to him?
Life brings you down slippery path ways but you try to deal with them with class and not angry or emotions.
I cant say more.
Love j
Thursday, 21 May 2009
Friday, 15 May 2009
A New Dawn!
Well we're now in the 5th month of the year of the Ox! Ahem, Well the year has been flying like fucking hell innit?
Anyway i haven't blogged in ages, so now as i sit in the Plaza of my University i taught "hey why not write up a blog". Awesome ey.
Alright so the year sounded pretty good, had an awesome time during the first few months, you just basically fucking around trying out new horizons. Became pretty wild.
Then in the beginning of March, i registered myself at Lim Kok Wing University Of Creative Technology. God that sounds nice, Yeah well so i started my classes and started scouting for friends, i became close with a bunch of Malaysians who are really cool and then realised that we were all in the same class. So we entered our class, first class, Mass Media, Once the class started i was so impressed because it was so interesting and then we moved on to the next class, which was Human Communication and again i was like woah! Thank god i chose this coarse.
Anyway as time went by i started to make a whole lot of new friends in class and around campus. Practically by the first month i knew everyone in my class and had quite a lot of friends around campus. So these are the most interesting guys i know, Adil Habib, A pakistani who clicks with me "like That" he's cool, entertaining and witty! And then we have Khairah@ G who's really neither here nor there! She's more bambi than Adil ( LOL ) sorry Dil.
Then we have Veronika whose the russian of the group, she's cool and reserved and very classy in the dress department. Then theres Gavin and Onella. These are all kids who are not in my class, there in a different coarse! But not adil, He's in my class. Ok now the wacksters in my class, Theres, Fahmi(the Cute Toyboy lookalike) then theres Syafiq(HulK),Mukriz(Khairul) , Loqman(batman gay boy hahaha) Syirah,Mimi,Chucky(the triplets..Theywish) and Alot more! Its awesome. Theyre all so intelligent and funny and ilovethem!!! OH OH Dont forget MOBY!! Muneeb, Adil's Cousin("") He's a fucking wacky filthy munky! hahaha.
Ok, now with recent changes of cataclysmic effect on my daily life, Ive sort of grown accustomed to the routine, of waking up,and getting to school and having fun there. It is rather suffocating some may think but "hey" you dont know till you try right?
Now of recent, we got to know a couple of girls and a boy, Amalina,Ain and Diqin. Theyre really funny and i get along with them like hell! We crack jokes practically all day long and it never ends!
OK into more important details, This year a war of crime broke out between Israel and Palastine. It was really heart breaking, watching kids and mothers and the innocent be separated from theyre loved ones and and killed or forced to fight, Homes were shattered and families broken and it was just a disaster. The problem was it was mainly palestinians who were killed. Seriously the israelites practically blew up all of that small strip. It was GENOCIDE. When u see pictures of mothers holding they're dead babies or Children in the age group of 1-15 having they're heads or body parts decapitated; You wonder? Is this all nessasary?? Well anyway, Moving on, To help these people, most countries were carrying out donation drives, campaigns, bazaars and ofcoarse medical aid donation. And being such a small country as we are, we managed to collect a hundred thousand and also send over a couple of doctors. I myself attented a few rallies and donation drives as a volunteer. And i felt overwhelmed at the sight of all these people who were trying to help.
SAVE GAZA
Now in the light of more exciting things, have been clubbing my ass off for the past few months, every weekend is a must> attented parties. Gained membership at my favourite club FRANGIPANI, Became well known in a few clubs and met so many interesting people.
Oh of recent, My best and most dearest friend, Andrea was admitted into hospital because his lung collapsed. Now what i dont understand is?! How the hell does a healthy, young, athletic guy like that who has never smoked a cigarette in his life just to add. and yeah! so i was really sad for a while, but he's holding up so yeah. Its all good!
Anyway i haven't blogged in ages, so now as i sit in the Plaza of my University i taught "hey why not write up a blog". Awesome ey.
Alright so the year sounded pretty good, had an awesome time during the first few months, you just basically fucking around trying out new horizons. Became pretty wild.
Then in the beginning of March, i registered myself at Lim Kok Wing University Of Creative Technology. God that sounds nice, Yeah well so i started my classes and started scouting for friends, i became close with a bunch of Malaysians who are really cool and then realised that we were all in the same class. So we entered our class, first class, Mass Media, Once the class started i was so impressed because it was so interesting and then we moved on to the next class, which was Human Communication and again i was like woah! Thank god i chose this coarse.
Anyway as time went by i started to make a whole lot of new friends in class and around campus. Practically by the first month i knew everyone in my class and had quite a lot of friends around campus. So these are the most interesting guys i know, Adil Habib, A pakistani who clicks with me "like That" he's cool, entertaining and witty! And then we have Khairah@ G who's really neither here nor there! She's more bambi than Adil ( LOL ) sorry Dil.
Then we have Veronika whose the russian of the group, she's cool and reserved and very classy in the dress department. Then theres Gavin and Onella. These are all kids who are not in my class, there in a different coarse! But not adil, He's in my class. Ok now the wacksters in my class, Theres, Fahmi(the Cute Toyboy lookalike) then theres Syafiq(HulK),Mukriz(Khairul) , Loqman(batman gay boy hahaha) Syirah,Mimi,Chucky(the triplets..Theywish) and Alot more! Its awesome. Theyre all so intelligent and funny and ilovethem!!! OH OH Dont forget MOBY!! Muneeb, Adil's Cousin("") He's a fucking wacky filthy munky! hahaha.
Ok, now with recent changes of cataclysmic effect on my daily life, Ive sort of grown accustomed to the routine, of waking up,and getting to school and having fun there. It is rather suffocating some may think but "hey" you dont know till you try right?
Now of recent, we got to know a couple of girls and a boy, Amalina,Ain and Diqin. Theyre really funny and i get along with them like hell! We crack jokes practically all day long and it never ends!
OK into more important details, This year a war of crime broke out between Israel and Palastine. It was really heart breaking, watching kids and mothers and the innocent be separated from theyre loved ones and and killed or forced to fight, Homes were shattered and families broken and it was just a disaster. The problem was it was mainly palestinians who were killed. Seriously the israelites practically blew up all of that small strip. It was GENOCIDE. When u see pictures of mothers holding they're dead babies or Children in the age group of 1-15 having they're heads or body parts decapitated; You wonder? Is this all nessasary?? Well anyway, Moving on, To help these people, most countries were carrying out donation drives, campaigns, bazaars and ofcoarse medical aid donation. And being such a small country as we are, we managed to collect a hundred thousand and also send over a couple of doctors. I myself attented a few rallies and donation drives as a volunteer. And i felt overwhelmed at the sight of all these people who were trying to help.
SAVE GAZA
Now in the light of more exciting things, have been clubbing my ass off for the past few months, every weekend is a must> attented parties. Gained membership at my favourite club FRANGIPANI, Became well known in a few clubs and met so many interesting people.
Oh of recent, My best and most dearest friend, Andrea was admitted into hospital because his lung collapsed. Now what i dont understand is?! How the hell does a healthy, young, athletic guy like that who has never smoked a cigarette in his life just to add. and yeah! so i was really sad for a while, but he's holding up so yeah. Its all good!
Monday, 29 December 2008
Twee Duizand And Bloody Eight.
Well, I end this year with a terribly broken heart.
I am Going to begin this blog with a little summary of my blessed year.
January, Well Jan was boring. It was just over so i was sort of trying to heal. Trust me Aromatherapy doesn't work. If u have a bad break up, Icecream and fattening food is the only stuff that will help u up and help u gain a few extra pounds sigh.
February, Same as January.
March, I left to national service.For more info check out my other blog. But somehow National Service helped me in a lot of healing ways. My heart was getting better.
Lets Skip to June.
I CAME HOME!
Started working in a small company called Getronics, Life was good. I was earning enough to party every weekend,so it kept me busy.
I resigned in October.Due to personal reasons.
November; It all started over again. She came back crawling slowly into my life. it was good at first all jolly and happy and emotionally she was there again.
December. Oh December.
Well i was going to turn 18 and i just couldn't wait , i was having quite a bit of fun going here and there, visiting friends who had come down from their respectful countries, unno just partying mainly. She started turning for the worst. As usual turning into the big bad wolf again. I started to feel the hurt.
I turned 18 and minutes before i did i was crying my lungs out on my bed. came out washed my face and put on a fake smile to greet the people who we're in my house at 12am. Yes She came.
the questions, Jon tell me why Ur not smiling when this was what u wanted all along?
Because when Ur heart is not at ease u cant be either was what i answered.
Had a birthday party by the pool and clubbed after.
Went to pangkor the next day, it made it worse.
Had the worse Christmas ever.
Not an ounce of happiness in me. all i did was get drunk to drown the pain.
Ironically i feel stupid. technically its not my fault because in this case my heart is making all the decisions.
cant wait for the new year, My resolution is to forget and move on. I hope i can. at the end of the day i quote. You make it Real for ME.
Happy 2009 Everyone. I hope u all find what your looking for.
Love Jon x
I am Going to begin this blog with a little summary of my blessed year.
January, Well Jan was boring. It was just over so i was sort of trying to heal. Trust me Aromatherapy doesn't work. If u have a bad break up, Icecream and fattening food is the only stuff that will help u up and help u gain a few extra pounds sigh.
February, Same as January.
March, I left to national service.For more info check out my other blog. But somehow National Service helped me in a lot of healing ways. My heart was getting better.
Lets Skip to June.
I CAME HOME!
Started working in a small company called Getronics, Life was good. I was earning enough to party every weekend,so it kept me busy.
I resigned in October.Due to personal reasons.
November; It all started over again. She came back crawling slowly into my life. it was good at first all jolly and happy and emotionally she was there again.
December. Oh December.
Well i was going to turn 18 and i just couldn't wait , i was having quite a bit of fun going here and there, visiting friends who had come down from their respectful countries, unno just partying mainly. She started turning for the worst. As usual turning into the big bad wolf again. I started to feel the hurt.
I turned 18 and minutes before i did i was crying my lungs out on my bed. came out washed my face and put on a fake smile to greet the people who we're in my house at 12am. Yes She came.
the questions, Jon tell me why Ur not smiling when this was what u wanted all along?
Because when Ur heart is not at ease u cant be either was what i answered.
Had a birthday party by the pool and clubbed after.
Went to pangkor the next day, it made it worse.
Had the worse Christmas ever.
Not an ounce of happiness in me. all i did was get drunk to drown the pain.
Ironically i feel stupid. technically its not my fault because in this case my heart is making all the decisions.
cant wait for the new year, My resolution is to forget and move on. I hope i can. at the end of the day i quote. You make it Real for ME.
Happy 2009 Everyone. I hope u all find what your looking for.
Love Jon x
Thursday, 9 October 2008
From Rags to riches
Its been very much a splendid day i mean the day couldn't have gone better, the world is so nice! hahaha not ! why is it that we can never be better than the rest when it comes to being great?
Some are born great, some have greatness trusted unto them! that's actually bollocks , have u ever asked the guy who sits next to you in your class , bout what he thinks he would become in the future, well i have, and the answer i normally get is, i want to become the president or a diplomat or achieve something that makes me extremely rich. to the point where i never have to worry bout NOT having money, but fundamentally, is money that important?
Well i think that you would live a dreadful life if u had too much money in your hands. Firstly you would be very paranoid, and secondly people who have loads of money are just very miserable!
Some are born great, some have greatness trusted unto them! that's actually bollocks , have u ever asked the guy who sits next to you in your class , bout what he thinks he would become in the future, well i have, and the answer i normally get is, i want to become the president or a diplomat or achieve something that makes me extremely rich. to the point where i never have to worry bout NOT having money, but fundamentally, is money that important?
Well i think that you would live a dreadful life if u had too much money in your hands. Firstly you would be very paranoid, and secondly people who have loads of money are just very miserable!
Wednesday, 8 October 2008
abolish.
Don't we all as Malaysians somehow feel as though our rights as humans have been taken away?
There are so many things in this country that are controlled in so many ways!
We are like robots to the goverment.
Basically if we could be kept in cages, they would do it.
Gosh, there are so many things you can't do in this country, compared to other countries our country stresses on so many unnessasary rules.
It clearly states in the constitution that we are allowed to voice out our opinions in the form of a protest or rally as long as we keep the peace between other cultures and religions.
IT clearly states that freedom of speech should be given to all.
But these days this practice has been locked away by the goverment.
Gosh, you say something about the ruling of the country and you get thrown away in ISA for it.
If you ask me, there are many ways to handle a situation, without using the barbaric force of the ISA.
Its like these days, you say something;be it the truth or not" and you get thrown away for two years. Do you think that people who rule this bautiful country kinda miss-use this power?
Concerts. I know we are a country that has a major population of muslims but does that mean that we are not allowed to watch concerts that other people around the world get to watch?
A country like indonesia who has a larger head count of muslims and yet they bring down concerts of every freaking GENRE!
as we say over here mana achi!
Anyway i think the country could do better in many aspects, we're have such rich culture and beautiful places, yet we're all just feeling so afraid and trapt by our own goverment.
There are so many things in this country that are controlled in so many ways!
We are like robots to the goverment.
Basically if we could be kept in cages, they would do it.
Gosh, there are so many things you can't do in this country, compared to other countries our country stresses on so many unnessasary rules.
It clearly states in the constitution that we are allowed to voice out our opinions in the form of a protest or rally as long as we keep the peace between other cultures and religions.
IT clearly states that freedom of speech should be given to all.
But these days this practice has been locked away by the goverment.
Gosh, you say something about the ruling of the country and you get thrown away in ISA for it.
If you ask me, there are many ways to handle a situation, without using the barbaric force of the ISA.
Its like these days, you say something;be it the truth or not" and you get thrown away for two years. Do you think that people who rule this bautiful country kinda miss-use this power?
Concerts. I know we are a country that has a major population of muslims but does that mean that we are not allowed to watch concerts that other people around the world get to watch?
A country like indonesia who has a larger head count of muslims and yet they bring down concerts of every freaking GENRE!
as we say over here mana achi!
Anyway i think the country could do better in many aspects, we're have such rich culture and beautiful places, yet we're all just feeling so afraid and trapt by our own goverment.
ABOLISH the right to take away OUR RIGHTS!
Peace be on us and our Country
Sex, Is it the enlightment to a swell relationship?
Most people wait a few weeks before they get into each others pants, But what if u do it on the first date?
what if u discover u have a bad play mate on the first date!?
I mean would tick you off? or would you try and live with it?
Ok, the fact is my friend has a lot of sex, i mean so do i, but she always tends to beat me.
Anyway we love sharing sex tips with each other. and sometimes we just agree on the same thing here or something there.
Now, I think that bad is sex is BAD. I mean i wouldn't to be having bad sex all the time. Bad sex sometimes is ok but imagine living with bad sex for 2 or 3 years?
Men discover sex at a very tender age normally and women tend to venture into the world of sex much later in life, so normally it would be the male figure who initiates the first move. Some girls have problems adapting to this new activity! and when they've fully ventured they tend to find fault in the guys, like "Your not fast enuf" or "you should try Viagra" or "we should try different positions"/ End of the day the girl takes the lead and the man is Ashamed of himself and becomes inferior. He will always have this thought in his head that he's never that good. And then what happens?
Well from the women's perspective its not always like that, I find that most women love to be driven to the place they want to be, some like it rough, some like it slow, some like it fast, some like it Big!?
So neither parties are ever happy if they don't have what the want?
Are men all living in fantasies ?
Are women living in dreamy orgasms?
I think its sorta ridiculous to judge a relationship based on the SEX!
But the world is sorta turning into a red light district anyway so, i guess we're all just a bunch of idiosyncratic whores.
peace be with you!
what if u discover u have a bad play mate on the first date!?
I mean would tick you off? or would you try and live with it?
Ok, the fact is my friend has a lot of sex, i mean so do i, but she always tends to beat me.
Anyway we love sharing sex tips with each other. and sometimes we just agree on the same thing here or something there.
Now, I think that bad is sex is BAD. I mean i wouldn't to be having bad sex all the time. Bad sex sometimes is ok but imagine living with bad sex for 2 or 3 years?
Men discover sex at a very tender age normally and women tend to venture into the world of sex much later in life, so normally it would be the male figure who initiates the first move. Some girls have problems adapting to this new activity! and when they've fully ventured they tend to find fault in the guys, like "Your not fast enuf" or "you should try Viagra" or "we should try different positions"/ End of the day the girl takes the lead and the man is Ashamed of himself and becomes inferior. He will always have this thought in his head that he's never that good. And then what happens?
Well from the women's perspective its not always like that, I find that most women love to be driven to the place they want to be, some like it rough, some like it slow, some like it fast, some like it Big!?
So neither parties are ever happy if they don't have what the want?
Are men all living in fantasies ?
Are women living in dreamy orgasms?
I think its sorta ridiculous to judge a relationship based on the SEX!
But the world is sorta turning into a red light district anyway so, i guess we're all just a bunch of idiosyncratic whores.
peace be with you!
The Art of Losing
Bonjour,
It happens to everyone!
It happens everyday!
It makes you feel like something was thrown at you with ultra lightning speed!
Now! what I'm talking about is LOSING.
It doesn't really matter what it is you lose, but just the mere fact that you know you've lost something makes you feel horrible!
OK the main point of this post is to explain my experiences to everyone on the things I've lost over the years of my existence.
The thing is I'm not going to blog about material things, I'm going to write about the "thing" that we all hate losing!
This precious thing that we all lose at some point of our lives is FRIENDS.
Gah the thought of losing friends to me has become the last thing on my mind!
I bet you want to know why right?
I'll start from a long long long time ago.
The fact is, I mix with a very mixed group and most of them consist of foreigners. I guess its because i click better with foreigners rather than locals. This could be because of my knowledge of the English language, I used to have problems communicating because my Malay was never that good, Well of recently my vocab in the Malay language has become very good and now i can have a good conversation without errors, Well most of the time at least!
Hey, I'm getting out of context! Anyway, yeah so most of my friends were from international schools or used to come down from overseas to visit me. And the thing is is they all left!
I mean they would be here for a month or so and then just leave and there i would be sobbing and getting all depressed, and you know what? I used to be so Emotional for like 2 weeks! and then finally i would move on! But the fact is i was getting tired of myself getting all emotional!
I would tell my self that i was a very sociable person and i had one too many friends , so for me to be crying over one friend was just ridiculous!
OK this may sound weird but, I think it applies to many of us, OK you when u and Ur friend love this particular song or band and then the friend leaves away and you know Ur not going to see the person for a long period of time, well for me i can never play THAT song or listen toTHAT band, because all it does is reminds me of the times we had! Its really weird but hey that's me!
So i will never listen to that particular song. haha
Anyway i think all of us go through a bad break up, or deaths, or losing precious things in our life. But we all need to learn how to get over it. I'm one to talk because I've gone thru so much in my life and yet I've tried to rise above everything, So i think, if i can do it;You can do it.
Common fact, Become less attached to the one you love for you might lose them at any time. But in that same time, Give them all the love you can give.
Speadthelove. jon . Aurevoir.xx
It happens to everyone!
It happens everyday!
It makes you feel like something was thrown at you with ultra lightning speed!
Now! what I'm talking about is LOSING.
It doesn't really matter what it is you lose, but just the mere fact that you know you've lost something makes you feel horrible!
OK the main point of this post is to explain my experiences to everyone on the things I've lost over the years of my existence.
The thing is I'm not going to blog about material things, I'm going to write about the "thing" that we all hate losing!
This precious thing that we all lose at some point of our lives is FRIENDS.
Gah the thought of losing friends to me has become the last thing on my mind!
I bet you want to know why right?
I'll start from a long long long time ago.
The fact is, I mix with a very mixed group and most of them consist of foreigners. I guess its because i click better with foreigners rather than locals. This could be because of my knowledge of the English language, I used to have problems communicating because my Malay was never that good, Well of recently my vocab in the Malay language has become very good and now i can have a good conversation without errors, Well most of the time at least!
Hey, I'm getting out of context! Anyway, yeah so most of my friends were from international schools or used to come down from overseas to visit me. And the thing is is they all left!
I mean they would be here for a month or so and then just leave and there i would be sobbing and getting all depressed, and you know what? I used to be so Emotional for like 2 weeks! and then finally i would move on! But the fact is i was getting tired of myself getting all emotional!
I would tell my self that i was a very sociable person and i had one too many friends , so for me to be crying over one friend was just ridiculous!
OK this may sound weird but, I think it applies to many of us, OK you when u and Ur friend love this particular song or band and then the friend leaves away and you know Ur not going to see the person for a long period of time, well for me i can never play THAT song or listen toTHAT band, because all it does is reminds me of the times we had! Its really weird but hey that's me!
So i will never listen to that particular song. haha
Anyway i think all of us go through a bad break up, or deaths, or losing precious things in our life. But we all need to learn how to get over it. I'm one to talk because I've gone thru so much in my life and yet I've tried to rise above everything, So i think, if i can do it;You can do it.
Common fact, Become less attached to the one you love for you might lose them at any time. But in that same time, Give them all the love you can give.
Speadthelove. jon . Aurevoir.xx
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